Recently, I have been thinking many deep thoughts; fearing lots of things out of my control, bringing me closer to God. Weighing heavy on my heart is how short our little 100 years on earth really is...trying to put into perspective how and why we are here. What is 100 years compared to eternity? Not long; a tiny piece of time. What is our purpose? Sure, the day to day activities, but bigger than that; there is more! I often think about it, over and over I hear people say as they get older how time flies; how children grow up so fast and the years go by in the blink of an eye. And, do many have anything to show for it? Anything through the eyes of our Heavenly Father? As I myself get older, I am finding this to be so true and I fear. I fear lots of things out of my control; bigger than me. As for the things I can control, I ask myself: "Did I do enough today?" "Am I living in His will?"
This is a side note, but it ties into the point.
Every night when I tuck the boys into bed...We check their hearts...this is a time when they usually open up to me and tell me some of their honest feelings and things weighing heavy on their hearts. I ask them if they are proud of the way they acted, would Jesus approve? Were you honest, did you use good listening ears and polite manners, I ask them if they smiled when they spoke, if they served with a happy heart etc. etc. All of these parental duties and all of the joy they bring to my heart. To hear the sweet little prayers to Jesus...all of the questions about life and heaven and Jesus and where He is and when will we see Him and how and why and on and on and on....
This is how God speaks to me...I had an absolute epiphany...
He is parenting me, like I am to them. I hear Him say: "I knew you before you were in your mothers womb, I know your heart. You are part of my plan! Trust me. Listen to me when I speak. Obey. I will protect you, I know what's best. You have confessions and questions, and I answer. You bring Me joy. You have struggles and fears, but it's ok. I am here. You raise your hands and I will pick you up. When I hold out Mine, jump; I will catch you. I am with you, there is nothing to fear. I Love you but, even more than that I Am Love. I know you don't understand; remember, trust Me!"
I get it, I see...and although I don't totally understand how he works sometimes...I trust. He, like a mother to her child is full of purpose! For, it is in our day to day activities that He chooses to show us things that are bigger than ourselves. He knows I am a visual learner...four little boys depend on me everyday and it's a little reminder...of why I call Him "Father". As for me and my tiny piece of time; He is the One I live from. His words are LIFE! What have I done today? Is it enough? I am certain that whatever His will, it will be done. Our time is short, though nothing to fear and, if tomorrow never comes I have truly lived for TODAY and from Him!
Now listen, who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, " If the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone, then who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.
James 4:13-17
Happy "Snowy" Monday everyone! God Bless your day :)
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